For all you out there living in a vacuum (not on Face book) I am in love. I don't say this because I want everyone to know. I am saying it for myself, after all this blog is for me to express myself right? Just for the record I want everyone to know.
As some of you may know, I am recently divorced (August 2009) and the idea that I would find someone to love me for me is almost unbelievable. That being said, I prayed for just this to happen. I prayed everyday and believed that God would send the right person for me when He willed it. All I had to do is wait on Him, right?
I have patience. I just didn't use very much of it after I started feeling myself again after the divorce. I tried to help God find her. God didn't need my help. I needed God's help. So you can imagine how I felt when I realized I was the reason the person for me wasn't already in my life.
I had to step back, sit down and let God's plan for me to unfold. I prayed again this time asking for His forgiveness and letting Him know I would wait on Him, no matter what. Once I did this, I felt relieved that God was in control because I also realized my choices got me to where I was in my life.
I remember praying that I didn't know what was best for my life and that I was willing to choose God's will for my life at that point even if it meant being alone.
The funny thing is I didn't have to wait very long for God to answer me. Yes Virginia, God answered my prayers. I prayed that the right person for me, the one God willed to be in my life would be placed in front of me and I would recognize when it happened. It happened!!
I was almost speechless ( I know you wish, right?) but everyday since then has been wonderful. Knowing God loves you enough to send your soul mate when you need them the most and exactly when you ask, submit and believe is a miracle. A miracle that I experience every day. I gaze into my beloved's Brown eyes and see love staring back at me. I know she is here for me. She loves me and I love her...unconditionally.
Isn't that a kick?
Gail I love you forever.
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